Thursday, October 1, 2009

IT'S A VERY VERY SMALL WORLD!

Ok so if u've noticed I only recently re-started blogging , and as I was going through my old posts and the comments I recieved , I found a comment from my friend's husband about 2 years ago , who only knew each other about a year ago! It really gave me goose-bumps..
and it was really weird! Considering the fact that I don't even know him , and now he's married to one of my best friends! Sub7an Allah..
God bless You Laila and Husam and grant you happiness and joy in ur life together :)

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

I Love my friends, and I really miss them!
So if you're a friend of mine and read this , I just want you to know..
I LOVE YOU..

Remember when we wanted to change the world? What happened to that??

So , it's been a while since i last blogged. And my last post was obviously written when i was kinda depressed. But no more blue days -I hope! :)
I graduated about 3 months ago Al 7amdulellah, and now I'm an intern..although i don't actually do alot of things , we mostly do paperwork.
So now comes the -what's next part. During my final exams which was in the may-june period , I beleive I had alot of hopes and expectations on how my life would be after I graduate. It was like, I had this feeling , that what's holding me back from actually changing the world is this degree/certificate that I have to get..
After graduating though , I found out that it's just -bullshit.
There's no such thnig as "I'm waiting for something to happen as soon as I'm over with this".. it's not a feeling of regret , because i don't regret it , it's like I'm awakened again..I've been in this dream/nightmare for six years and now im awakened, with an MD degree!
I had lots of hopes, lots of plans.. but one way or another nothing is working - or maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I NEED SOMETHING NEW.
And I will change the world. One day Insha'Allah.

Friday, March 6, 2009

What scares you most?

I' afraid. Scared. From what, or who? I don't know.
The future I guess. I'm standing at a cross roads and i have absolutely no idea where to go. Maybe I'll just flip a coin and see where it will lead me to. You gonna say : well talk to a freind.
I never oppened up to anyone. I mean REALLY open up. I noticed that today. Looking back, I had so many good freinds, but not ONCE I REALLY opened my heart for one of them. I think I have problems with trusting people. It's funny how my freinds trust me, i mean they could bet their lives on me, but I never trusted anyone - enough.
I wish i knew who i really am. Im sick of being so immature , while evryone around me , same age as mine, are reaching way high levels of maturity, and im just stuck here in the stupid immature me. im freakin 23, and i cant make my own decisions. so hesitant ain every single decision.
And im really boring. I mean God help who ever I may marry one day. That is if I ever will. I have problems with being close to someone. I run away when i notice that someone likes me. Even if i like that person back , i can't help but runaway. what is freakin wrong with me? I want attention , and when i get it, i flee. Insecurity? Yea I guess.
I've put myself on pause for so long. But not anymore. Will be a yes-person from now on.